So many people are submitting stories and coming out and talking about people who have harassed them, many of which who are popular on tumblr, and even though probably no one knows who this man is, I really feel the need to submit this, because it’s been eating at me for almost 2 years now.
I made my first tumblr account back in early 2012 when I had just turned 14, and in the beginning of November 2012, I started posting WWII related material. I’ve been really interested in history, especially WWII, since I was around 9 years old, so I was really excited to blog about this and meet people who were interested in it as well. And through all that, I met this man, fuehrerbefehl.
He was nice at first, very, very, racist, sexist, homophobic, etc, but he was nice. He complimented me, and when I talked about suicide he would attempt to make me feel better, so in my mind that somewhat washed away the extremely negative things about him. When I would post pictures of myself he would compliment me, and then we started talking somewhat regularly.
But then he would start making me guilty when I didn’t respond, he would talk down to me like I was some child who needed to be disciplined, and it made me uncomfortable, but I never cut off contact with him.
Near January 2013, he would start sending me asks like the main picture above, and when I would post pictures of myself trying my hardest to be body positive in my new clothes or a bathing suit, he would send me messages like this.
Please keep in mind that I was 14 when this all happened, and that he admitted to being at least 30 years old. I was lonely, I was insecure, and I was extremely depressed and suicidal. At first I thought it was pretty cool that an older guy liked me, that he thought I was “beautiful” and so on.
He would say things like “if you were 18 would you fuck me?” He guilt tripped me into telling him my location and my full name, and treated me like shit when I at first didn’t want to. I was very passionate about burlesque and he would send me messages about how badly he wanted me to perform and strip for him (I don’t have any of the messages saved but here’s a response to one of my old posts)
Finally I cut him off, I blocked him and I never heard from him again, until near the end of this March when he liked a picture I posted of myself. It caused me to have the worst panic attack I’ve ever had in years, and I begged him and begged him until he unfollowed me. He makes me feel disgusting and dirty, and even though what he didn’t wasn’t as terrible as whats happened to many other people, he’s always still in the back of my head. I’m 16 now and I can’t believe that I let someone like him take advantage of me like that.
I’m not sure if anyone really cares about this, because, well, he’s an asshole racist with a Third Reich blog who isn’t that popular with the more common blogs on here, but he’s a pedophile, and someone who has sexually harassed me, and I just wanted to put it out there, so thank you for your time.
Haven’t uploaded anything in awhile! Here’s something so you can forgive me c:
のほも is such a good word?? the concept is kind of hard to fully get across in translation, but basically it means a feeling of pure, deep, platonic affection, and i think thats beautiful
Groundwork of Evangelion 3.33 vol.1